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Cause my heart breaks a little when I hear your name

And it all just sound like uh, uh, uh

Hmmm too young, too dumb to realize

That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand

Should have gave you all my hours when I had the chance

Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.

My pride, my ego, my needs and my selfish ways

Caused a good strong woman like you to walk out my life

Now I never, never get to clean up the mess I made

And it haunts me every time I close my eyes

It all just sounds like uh, uh, uh, uh

Too young, too dumb to realize

That I should have bought you flowers and held your hand

Should have gave all my hours when I had the chance

Take you to every party cause all you wanted to do was dance

Now my baby is dancing, but she's dancing with another man.

Although it hurts I'll be the first to say that I was wrong

Oh, I know I'm probably much too late

To try and apologize for my mistakes

But I just want you to know

 I hope he buys you flowers, I hope he holds your hand

Give you all his hours when he has the chance

Take you to every party cause I remember how much you loved to dance

Label: heartalk, lovely song :*, Riri and her story

Label: heartalk, lovely song :*, Riri and her story

mungkin dia sempat berpikir. aku ini sama seperti yang lainnya.
seperti nama nama yang slalu ia ceritakan kepadaku dengan nada memburu.
sampai kesulitan bertemu titik celah bernafas.
ia sebal. dan memaki.

mungkin saat itu aku hanya bertutur "sabar ya"
karena aku pikir "itu sudah lewat. mau bagaimana lagi?"
saat itu aku malas diancam resiko jika aku-menceramahi-nya.
jadi kugunakan jalur aman.

jika kini akulah yg ia bicarakan dengan nada memburu,
dengan kilatan kasar pada ruas kata pedihnya
maka adakah lagi seorang pesabar lainnya?
adakah?

Label: heartalk, Riri and her story

to realize that I have been replaced
and you were here but you're just so far
you and me were a stranger.

to realize that i was meaningless
i don't know what to do
when you walked around.
just bite my tongue instantly.

you don't even look at me.
oh my apology i forgot that was invisible.
i'm not belong you.

don't you hear my heartbeats?
calling your name. you're not listening.
when you busy.
you keep in running

you hate your sweat, i love your sweat.
your sweat. when you are running to me.
you are looking for me. you're just sweating.
but it was all yesterday.

Label: heartalk, Riri and her story

Mendung, jika memang lelah sudah mengandung.
tumpahkan saja semua hujan yang tak terbendung.
karna hati ini tak kuasa lagi menampung.
tak cukup hanya sekedar aku meraung dalam tabung.

sudah
sudah
sudah.
aku lelah,
dari segala sudut waktu beriringan.
ada saja problema yang datang.

salah apa?! salah apa?! 

oh ya tuhanku, hamba sudah cukup susah.
susah. bernafas.
hamba sering kesulitan mencari cari celah untuk hamba bernafas di tengah deras hujan.

"Aku gamau, aku nggak bisa. aku nggak mau 10 atau 20 tahun lagi aku masih ngrasain sakit ini tiap liat kamu"

Label: awesome film xD, deep pict :o, heartalk

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleepin' alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waitin' for me to come home

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
 
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
Yeah you don't understand
How it feels to love a girl someday
You wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you have got destroyed
But you're just a boy

Label: heartalk, lovely song :*

Label: deep pict :o, heartalk

aku disini kok tambah males ya? tambah payah. menyepelekan.
apa karna yang udah aku kejar udah tercapai? dapet sekolah yang tak pingin? jadi usahaku sedikit berkurang.
dan sekarang targetku menurun. masuk IPA. tok.
padahal salah. salaaaah harusnya targetku itu ranking. ranking dengan nilai yang bagus dikelas dan masuk IPA. gak cuma penting masuk IPA.

Aku pingin ke UNAIR. entah fakultas apa. kadang sama cita- cita aja aku masih bingung.

Label: heartalk, Riri and her story

Last night I heard my own heart beating
Sounded like footsteps on my stairs
Six months gone and I'm still reaching
Even though I know you're not there
I was playing back a thousand memories, baby
Thinking 'bout everything we've been through
Maybe I've been going back too much lately
When time stood still and I had you

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

I know people change and these things happen
But I remember how it was back then
Wrapped up in your arms and our friends were laughing
Cause nothing like this ever happened to them,
Now I'm pacing down the hall, chasing down your street
Flashback to the night when you said to me,

"Nothing's gonna change, not for me and you"

Not before I knew how much I had to lose

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

If you're out there,
If you're somewhere,
If you're moving on,
I've been waiting for you.
Ever since you've been gone
I just want it back the way it was before.
And I just wanna see you back at my front door.
And I say

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would before you said it's not that easy
Before the fight, before I locked you out
But I take it all back now

Come back, come back, come back to me like
You would, you would if this was a movie
Stand in the rain outside 'til I came out
Come back, come back, come back to me like
You could, you could if you just said you're sorry
I know that we could work it out somehow
But if this was a movie you'd be here by now

You'd be here by now
It's not the kind of ending you wanna see now
Baby, what about the ending
Oh, I thought you'd be here by now, whoa
Thought you'd be here by now

Label: heartalk, lovely song :*

Trimakasih. buat
1. Titien Agustini as my mother.
Yang masih rela tidur sama aku. walau sering kebangun
gara" aku. dulu aku nangis sambil mbekep bantal, soalnya ku malu kalo ketauan nangis. Tapi ternyata terlalu meledak dan masih aja kedengeran. dan masih sabar nanyain aku kenapa dan meluk aku sampek aku capek nangis sampe tidur. skitar jam 1an. makasih banyak.
makasih juga udah ngebantu banget aku dapet impian. citacitaku. SMAN 3 Malang.
setiap detik di smanti. aku slalu menyayangimu.

2. Nadya Husni
makasih nayaaaaaaa. kon wes koyok kembarankuuu. tapi lebih dewaan kon timbang akuuu.
love you naya. makasih udah mau ndengerin curhatanku dari yang penting sampe gak blas dan spam" ku.
makasih wes nolong aku buuuufwanyak hal. makasih kon sering ngingetin dan meredakan aku meskipun aku koar". makasiiih kamu punya jalan pikiran yang aku bisa logisin. makasih buat segalanya naya.

3. Anak Cewek 7-8-9 H
MAKASIH YO REK. AKU HOLDING ON NYA SELALU KE KALIAN, AKU NGRASA PULANG KALO SAMA KALIAN. AKU NGERASA DIRUMAH KALO SAMA KALIAN. KALIAN GA KEGANTI REK. AKU SELALU KANGEN DAN SELALU DAN SLAMANYA KANGEN. AKU CE I EN TE A KALIAAN *cium siji siji muah!* :*

4. Hafidz
makasih yo bantet wes ndengerin aku curhat *soal e mbok pancing* *dan aku kepancing*
makasih banyaak. masi o kon sering ngenyek aku, mbully aku. nggarai aku. nguncal spatuku. mbalang aku pake bola basket. nglempar buah mangga mejret padahal kon ngerti aku ga seneng mangga. nggigit" pisan *oh, plis aku kena rabies* nggarai rok ku sobek. t-___-t makasih banyaaaaaaaks

5. Ainuraziz R
nuwus yo ziz, ayas bersyukur ewud konco kayak awakmu. daridulu kon pancet ga berubah. masio di negri apa madrasah pancet. ga misuhan. ber komitmen. mbanyol dan random. tapi tetep jadi diri sendiri apa adanya ngono lo. dan ga tau jaim. asik sumpah kalo jadi temen. stay pinter yo jes. ojok galoan. sukses! *doain sak kelas maneh pas kuliah* hoahahaha

6. Anak cowok 7-8-9H
REK! aku kangen kalian pas nyanyi random dikelas. aku kangen pas kalian ga jaim. "cicak cicak cicak di dinding menanam cicak di kebun kitaaaa" oh gendeng :') "selamat panjang umur dan bahagiaa..aaaaaa selamat panjang umur dan ba ha gi aaaaaa selamat panjang umur dan *gak mari2*" :'3 rek kalian ga jaim itu lo tambah keren. nyapa o ya rek kalo ketemu :D makasih banyak rek. tanpa kalian, di MTs bakal monoton! sukses ya bro bro semuaaa :')

masih ada lagi yg perlu tak makasih in. makanyaaa stay on blog ku yaaa! ting ting~ (?)

Label: heartalk, Riri and her story, temankawanku

Label: heartalk

and after he left me, he was comeback to me with all those pretty words.
it's a beautiful tragedy. i was upset, im mad, im happy. yes i am.

i love you, i love you. please stop asking me anymore.
and you dont have to answer. because, i wont believe with what you'll say. thats hurt enough.

Label: heartalk